DJRocket says:
July 21, 2010 at 10:20 am
I stumbled across this blog while trying to research my own problem. I’m in my 30′s and married, I e from a very dysfuntional background, my father was he fatherly type, pretty much a sperm donor really. i have 2 older brothers with whom i have ionship. growing up i had ma buddies but usually they fell to the wayside through relationships with girls who wahem to themselves, you probably know the type. i dont have any tact with family these days. i sider myself straight although lately i have really started to pine for male affe, not sex or anything but i suppose a strong male bond with some1. maybe some1 to talk about certain things with and that. i’m not really sure how to articulate it but i suppose i feel i have beeively effected by having n male role models in my life. i envy men who have a real best friend the type you know would do anything for their friend. i have a really good mate who lives some distance away if we get together for a session we usually book a hotel iy as its cheaper than trying to get home. on our last session we had a double and single in the room. we both crashed in the double, i was starkers, he had boxers on. nothing happened although i dont think i would have wanted anything to but i did get a really good if unusual feeling about being so close nad intimate with another man. (if that makes sence) i’ve thought really hard about whether or not i would be open to something happeniween us, a small part of me thinks i would for the experiend probably more importantly to feel loved by a man, but another part of me feels disgusted by it. i re a lot of this es from a childhood without hugs or affe and i know i am a good person who deserves it. i’m happily married, ups and downs but pretty normal. does anyone have any similar stories they could share so i know i am not alone here?
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maybebi says:
July 21, 2010 at 9:13 pm
I think it makes total sehere’s so